Post by Jenn on Nov 12, 2017 7:07:56 GMT
I'm having some...feelings.
Excuse me while I ignore most of the other tribe, because until exile starts, they don't even exist as far as I'm concerned...(except Teddy and Steffen, y'all better work it out).
Night 1 was interesting, but I hated it. Do you know how awkward it is to make general chit chat with strangers for the first time? God, cringe. I'm like trying to increase my social game here, but I already need a break. It helped going on call with most of the group, even though it took me a while to be comfortable enough to share my own stories. I think, on a call, you don't want to be the most talkative, but you don't want to be a complete wallflower either. God things came from the call, like seemingly getting close to Nick and Jeff after talking for 4 hours (and lowkey Jeff is hilarious like I liked him already because #canada but still) and exchanging Snapchats with them and Jermaine was good too. Anything that makes you feel more like an actual person and less of a game piece is a step in the right direction. Austin talked the least on call, and Elise definitely talked the most. She has some stories to tell and I can already see her being loved by everyone on the tribe. She said she's played other ORGs before and it shows. I would love to work with her, but I've got to keep my eye on that too. Nick said this was his first ORG ever, and I'm like why does this feel fake as fuck? I'm just naturally suspicious but if this truly is his first game, I can see him going really far. Never having played before gives him this like really unassuming vibe where he could hide even if he's the most cutthroat player ever, even he probably doesn't even know how he's going to play yet, so I feel like he could go really far. Like top 4 far. Jermaine seems like the best person on our tribe. Like easily a fan favourite. I'd love to play with him because he just keeps people happy.
Ben coming on call was weird. I don't know if people know that we know each other, and Ben was acting like he didn't even know my name on call, which kind of pissed me off. There are obviously other connections in this game, and him refusing to acknowledge we know each other sets me up for a downfall if someone searches on the Tumblr wiki and figures out we were close allies and friends and that Ben (and by extension me) are lying about it. The plan for now is to just kind of throw Ben under the bus, saying I never lied, and that in our last game he betrayed me and I cried. Austin played a Tumblr Survivor game and didn't even know there was a wiki, so hopefully it's just as irrelevant as it should be. Honestly though, there are too many Tumblr people in this game. Those who do know of that community, I hope I'm underestimated. I hope those who have asked me about it, give it no stock and think I'm easy to control or beat or whatever. Please please please work to my advantage. Aside from Ben, who has already thrown me into game conversations about who he wants out first, who he wants to align with, who he's chatting to today... I know Steffen and Teddy on the other tribe. I guess technically Jeff is from some Tumblr stuff too, but my one short game with him included limited interaction. Steffen and I were never really aligned in the one game we played together, but we've been friends before and after that. I'd love to play with Teddy, but I don't know if our game playing styles would mesh. I think he would cut me in a second because I know he's sneaky, but he's great.
Anyways, back to my tribe for a hot second. I literally cannot stop associating Michael with his "daddy" comment in his intro video. It's a no from me. I've been making small talk with him for the past 10 hours or so, and I want to yell in the chat like GIVE ME SOMETHING TO WORK WITH HERE. Right now I don't trust him. He doesn't seem like the type to coddle anyone, and for two reasons I can't deal with that: 1. I need someone who can fake it with people even if you hate them and 2. I'm scared he would be willing to cut anyone, which like, okay yes be savage, but stay loyal to me. THANKS! Austin was quiet yesterday, and we had good talks (thanks for bonding us Sam McCanada!) but dude literally replies LOL or LMAO to every single thing that I said. Now I know I'm not funny, so okay WORK. We called today though for at least an hour, and he was telling about the game the hosts and knowing Holli and Sam because they were the final two of his game. Notes have been taken. He showed me this Christmas video he and his friends made and shared some other stories. He said his friend told him to align with the 3 girls on his tribe, and added me on Facebook, so I think were getting somewhere? Like do I want to align with him and the 3 girls? Hell no. I would be completely on the outs of that foursome, and have to rely on Elise to side with me to even just cause a tie against Holli and Austin if something happened. He said it like he was half joking, but everything you say has a purpose. Speaking of Holli, I've talked to her the least. I've seen her play before in CYS and a little in Sequester, so I'm slightly intimated and have no idea how to talk to her. Even her intro video was short so all I really know about her is that she drinks vodka. Solid choice though, I'll give her that.
I've been watching the Facebook tribe reveal posts all day, because I feel like when people have commented who they're cheering for, those people have connections. It's basically true for those few who commented about me (SHOUTOUT TO THEM) so I'm just assuming it's true for the majority of others. I don't want it to play too much into how I'm thinking, but small seeds to plant in the mind.
I'm petrified of doing poorly in this game so please pray for me or send me chocolate.
Excuse me while I ignore most of the other tribe, because until exile starts, they don't even exist as far as I'm concerned...(except Teddy and Steffen, y'all better work it out).
Night 1 was interesting, but I hated it. Do you know how awkward it is to make general chit chat with strangers for the first time? God, cringe. I'm like trying to increase my social game here, but I already need a break. It helped going on call with most of the group, even though it took me a while to be comfortable enough to share my own stories. I think, on a call, you don't want to be the most talkative, but you don't want to be a complete wallflower either. God things came from the call, like seemingly getting close to Nick and Jeff after talking for 4 hours (and lowkey Jeff is hilarious like I liked him already because #canada but still) and exchanging Snapchats with them and Jermaine was good too. Anything that makes you feel more like an actual person and less of a game piece is a step in the right direction. Austin talked the least on call, and Elise definitely talked the most. She has some stories to tell and I can already see her being loved by everyone on the tribe. She said she's played other ORGs before and it shows. I would love to work with her, but I've got to keep my eye on that too. Nick said this was his first ORG ever, and I'm like why does this feel fake as fuck? I'm just naturally suspicious but if this truly is his first game, I can see him going really far. Never having played before gives him this like really unassuming vibe where he could hide even if he's the most cutthroat player ever, even he probably doesn't even know how he's going to play yet, so I feel like he could go really far. Like top 4 far. Jermaine seems like the best person on our tribe. Like easily a fan favourite. I'd love to play with him because he just keeps people happy.
Ben coming on call was weird. I don't know if people know that we know each other, and Ben was acting like he didn't even know my name on call, which kind of pissed me off. There are obviously other connections in this game, and him refusing to acknowledge we know each other sets me up for a downfall if someone searches on the Tumblr wiki and figures out we were close allies and friends and that Ben (and by extension me) are lying about it. The plan for now is to just kind of throw Ben under the bus, saying I never lied, and that in our last game he betrayed me and I cried. Austin played a Tumblr Survivor game and didn't even know there was a wiki, so hopefully it's just as irrelevant as it should be. Honestly though, there are too many Tumblr people in this game. Those who do know of that community, I hope I'm underestimated. I hope those who have asked me about it, give it no stock and think I'm easy to control or beat or whatever. Please please please work to my advantage. Aside from Ben, who has already thrown me into game conversations about who he wants out first, who he wants to align with, who he's chatting to today... I know Steffen and Teddy on the other tribe. I guess technically Jeff is from some Tumblr stuff too, but my one short game with him included limited interaction. Steffen and I were never really aligned in the one game we played together, but we've been friends before and after that. I'd love to play with Teddy, but I don't know if our game playing styles would mesh. I think he would cut me in a second because I know he's sneaky, but he's great.
Anyways, back to my tribe for a hot second. I literally cannot stop associating Michael with his "daddy" comment in his intro video. It's a no from me. I've been making small talk with him for the past 10 hours or so, and I want to yell in the chat like GIVE ME SOMETHING TO WORK WITH HERE. Right now I don't trust him. He doesn't seem like the type to coddle anyone, and for two reasons I can't deal with that: 1. I need someone who can fake it with people even if you hate them and 2. I'm scared he would be willing to cut anyone, which like, okay yes be savage, but stay loyal to me. THANKS! Austin was quiet yesterday, and we had good talks (thanks for bonding us Sam McCanada!) but dude literally replies LOL or LMAO to every single thing that I said. Now I know I'm not funny, so okay WORK. We called today though for at least an hour, and he was telling about the game the hosts and knowing Holli and Sam because they were the final two of his game. Notes have been taken. He showed me this Christmas video he and his friends made and shared some other stories. He said his friend told him to align with the 3 girls on his tribe, and added me on Facebook, so I think were getting somewhere? Like do I want to align with him and the 3 girls? Hell no. I would be completely on the outs of that foursome, and have to rely on Elise to side with me to even just cause a tie against Holli and Austin if something happened. He said it like he was half joking, but everything you say has a purpose. Speaking of Holli, I've talked to her the least. I've seen her play before in CYS and a little in Sequester, so I'm slightly intimated and have no idea how to talk to her. Even her intro video was short so all I really know about her is that she drinks vodka. Solid choice though, I'll give her that.
I've been watching the Facebook tribe reveal posts all day, because I feel like when people have commented who they're cheering for, those people have connections. It's basically true for those few who commented about me (SHOUTOUT TO THEM) so I'm just assuming it's true for the majority of others. I don't want it to play too much into how I'm thinking, but small seeds to plant in the mind.
I'm petrified of doing poorly in this game so please pray for me or send me chocolate.