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Post by Jenn on Nov 23, 2017 8:14:14 GMT
Me @ everyone tonight after the challenge and exile results: Me @ Michael when he started messaging me about the vote acting like he was on my side: Nick @ Jeff trying to get the vote from Holli onto Michael: Me @ myself after the votes were read and realized I wasted the idol: Me @ Holli after I found out she told Nick that I'm not a fan of her and that I'm "intimated" by her: Me @ Michael when we were trying to clear the air after I confronted him about lying: Me @ Austin when he came back from exile saying he wanted to target Jermaine:
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Post by Jenn on Nov 23, 2017 8:16:01 GMT
Also going to link this here because it's one of the best videos on the internet and it needs to be bookmarked. This is my best ally? What am I thinking?
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Post by Jenn on Nov 24, 2017 10:19:34 GMT
I feel like I need to record my thoughts before the game starts back up again and were either swapped, *John Wilson voice* "WHAT'S A SWAP?", or I'm forced to compete with these freaks again. That vote was a clusterfuck, a shitstorm, a live tribal, whatever you want to call it, it's an understatement. I think the entire tribe was kind of on the same page that we expected to lose, and whether that affected the results or not, I guess we'll never know. I did hear that Donald ate the half stick of butter, which I find fascinating and utterly disgusting, but I would expect no less dedication to the game from the Yurbaco tribe. When it was announced that Austin was going to exile, I was shocked. From everything I told Donald, and everything Nick then told Lizzie, it just seemed weird. Jeff was going off about how Austin must be cross tribal talking or something because they would never pick him to go. I do think that Lizzie had some influence in it, but when Austin came back he was saying that they weren't united on the exile vote so who knows how he got there. It was just the beginning of a shitty situation because Nick and I felt like there was some wiggle room in working with Austin on this vote. The vote itself, I was feeling like an idiot for playing my idol last night and it kept me up for a few hours, even though I knew I would almost always play it at the first tribal I attended after exile. After seeing the Elise vote, they were bound to assume I had it. It's been extremely frustrating that no one seems to be giving me a chance to play on this tribe, and they're content with sticking to a group and annihilating everyone else. I've been kind of having a pity party for myself the last 24 hours, because I don't think I did anything wrong in this game, and you're just written off. Regardless, I always felt like I had to take a risk to build trust with these people, and although I didn't tell them about the idol, I played it so they can be certain I don't have it anymore and don't need to split votes, that I'm not going to just idol them out, that they don't need to be scared or whatever of me. Jeff, Nick and I were on call for a while after we set a tribal time, and Jeff was feeding us information about what the alliances' voting plans were. It sounded like for a while they were going to split votes, because they thought only one of me and Nick had an idol, and then things got messy. Jeff said that Holli said she would "gladly" write my name down and then Jermaine messaged Nick that he was still deciding who to vote for between "Jenn and Nick". Bro...you're talking to Nick. Shortly after that, Nick left to go on call with Jermaine and sort out that fuck up. Nick was then relaying that conversation saying that Jermaine said he couldn't vote for Holli without Michael on board, and Michael didn't want to do that because like I said, he's stuck to that fucking alliance. Jeff wanted Holli out, and I talked to her the least, so I figured why not? She's already voting for me, so no big loss and hopefully it frees up Austin even more. However, while Nick was on call with Jermaine, he was watching Jermaine do all this work to get Michael on board with voting out Holli. All the while, Michael is messaging me about feeling in danger, so I'm just playing with him talking about how scared I also am because I think I'm on the bottom, and he's asking me if I have anything to help us blah blah blah, so I'm lying saying we have to vote Nick, until he comes to me saying that now he's heard Holli, and if we do that, then we can save each other and Nick. Am I supposed to feel grateful to this snake? Pass. Okay, are we still following? So at this point, the vote should be 5-1 for Holli and me. I was practically dying to get Nick on call and just talk the two of us about it, because after he left I was on call with Jeff, just making sure he was good with things, but Nick was texting me about seeing how dangerous Jermaine is and how much of a duo he is with Michael, so now he wants Michael out. I could totally see where he was coming from, and we'd already talked about Michael wouldn't know how to tell the truth if it hit him in the face, and for his game at least, Holli seemed like she was willing to work with Nick. At this point, tribal is in all of 5 minutes, and we don't know who we want out. Nick hopped back on call with me and Jeff, and because we're running out of time, confronts Jeff about us three voting for Michael instead. Not happening. Jeff is pretty persistent that Holli still needs to go, and I'm texting each of them separately, and Nick is thinking that Jermaine/Michael/Jeff are a tight three and if we don't swap and lose again, we're dependent on Austin to even cause a tie for us. Pretty bleak odds. Honestly, he has a point. There was something weird about the whole night and the info that Jeff would tell us, that doesn't take that threesome out of the realm of possibility. Emotions were running high and Jermaine didn't even message me once leading up to the vote, so at this point I'm thinking FUCK THIS and was literally, THIS CLOSE (imagine the 'OK' emoji where the thumb and index finger don't actually touch) to using my idol on Holli and having Nick and I vote out Michael. If this doesn't tell you how frustrated I was and how way too attached I am to Nick, I don't know what will. So I text Nick that, and he's also close do doing the same, and I think now that it's all said and done, kind of regrets not doing it, since he was going to play the idol anyways, but he told me while tribal council was happening that he would follow my lead on the idol situation. So Nick, Jeff and I are all on call freaking out because we need to hop off and join tribal council, but we don't know who were voting. During tribal, I'm still messaging them both, and Nick is answering tribal questions and shading Michael, but Jeff thinks it was about him and asking me about it, and then it's time to vote and I'm texting Nick like an idiot that Holli needs to change her vote to Michael to save herself and then Jeff will flip on a revote but of course she had to prevote and her phone had died. Then John is waiting for votes, and he's clearly just waiting on me and Nick to submit, and at the last second, I vote Holli. I don't want to use my idol on her and put a bigger target on my back for someone I don't even know would work with me afterwards, but I still need to play it on myself a) in case they did split votes because I know I can't trust Jermaine and Michael but for the life of me I can't figure out Jeff and b) when Austin comes back he's not worried about be lying or whatever, at this point I'm just trying to make myself feel better about it. As an aside, and about what Holli apparently said to Nick about me, I am actually a fan of her. I think we just didn't connect personally, and that might be on me. My first message to her was about being intimidated because of her past game placements and watching her play in CYS and Sequester, so I don't think it was a negative comment, she was just looking it as I was scared of her so I would want her out. I was wary sure, but I meant what I said. Any girl, any person really, who can come into these games and consistently do well, lead the games they play and dictate moves, is someone you want to cheer for. Michael messages me two hearts after tribal, and that sets me off. Like, take a hint. I apologized for not telling him about the idol, but tell him that it's been weird with us ever since he lied to me about the first vote when I came up to him asking about either Austin or Ben and he told me no. He didn't reply for a while, and then got almost defensive about it, saying that he went back and read the message and he never told me Ben, he just asked who said that. No offense, but I know how to read too. You said OMG WHO SAID BEN I HAVEN'T HEARD THAT AT ALL and then voted for him. He also says the first vote wasn't about me, it was about Ben and Elise knowing each (Elise told me she had no clue Ben had been on Tengaged) and that he found out about me and Ben much later. Very interesting. But I'm calm and tell him okay, you didn't say no, but it was mixed signals and he just tells me that it's whatever, water under the bridge, because we've been helping each other out lately. What the actual fuck? I swear, some people are dense. Where exactly have you been helping me out Michael? You fucked me over the first vote and lied to my face, would've voted me out had I not been sent to exile round two, and would've voted for me tonight if Jermaine hadn't spent an hour hounding you to vote for Holli. Damn, I need to learn how to help people clearly. Again, calm. He says were both team players and he likes that about me and it meant a lot to him to have me help him with the gifs in the challenge. Whatever. He didn't do his daily "Hey Jenn" message today, so pretty sure he hates me now too. The truth hurts people. Jeff calls Nick and I right after tribal, and I like Jeff, I really do, but at this point like I'm just not in the mood. I was literally on the verge of tears after that whole debacle, because just nothing I just can't do anything right in this game. Anyways, Nick confesses to Jeff that he was super close to using his idol on Holli, and he says that he suggested that in our chat but we just didn't read it, and that he wouldn't have been mad had that happened, or had we switched our votes, even though we didn't have the numbers as only two. Jeff then says he feels super guilty and he doesn't want us not to trust him and just that he feels really bad because after the first vote and now this, Nick and I are just lucky to scrape by basically and he doesn't want that. I then feel bad because I didn't want to put Nick in a bad position by keeping Michael, because I know that's his "Holli" in this situation. When I get emotional, I'm not the smartest decision maker, so I'm brash and ask Jeff outright, if it came down to Jermaine/Michael vs. me/Nick, who does he vote with. He said us, no question, no hesitation, which is nice to hear, and does carry some weight, but in this game actions speak louder than words so I guess we'll see. He probably thinks I don't trust him now and I just pushed him to their side, but damage done. We make plans to watch a movie sometime soon, the Lizzie McGuire movie because Nick lives under a rock and hasn't seen it, and are done with each other for the night. Jeff goes to bed, and Nick and I move our call to our personal messages so as to not look even more suspect to Jeff who I know won't fall asleep right away. Nick and I have our nightly call, rehash the night, try and make some tentative plans for moving forward but it's hard with all the potential scenarios. After hanging up the call, I get a text from Nick saying that he's actually just a bit hurt that Michael keeps lying to his face. I've actually developed a fast friendship with Nick, so this makes me pissed at Michael even more. Honestly, it's kind of super interesting to see how Nick deals with his first ORG. He was saying how even if the game ended now, he'd need a 3 month break because it's already been a rollercoaster. It reminds me of playing my first game, where I think I cried the most I ever had in my life the night I got blindsided by a friend, or didn't think I'd ever play another game. Ever. Yet here we are. I don't know whether it's been this shitty tribe and I've basically only had him to talk to, but he's been the best ally and friend in this game that I could've asked for. Recipe for disaster because I already know I'm too loyal to him. There's no doubt in my mind that he could go far. I made the prediction of him doing well in my first confessional, and I stand by it even now. Everyone likes him, and how can you not, like I've literally had both Jeff and Austin come to me to say that Nick is one of their favourites. I know he's got an in with Jermaine, even though Jermaine would cut his own mother to win at this point, and Holli would've worked with him, given the right circumstances. Truthfully, I think he should've cut me at maybe not that last vote, but soon if we don't swap. I would cut me. If he votes me out, that could easily gain him more trust with these people, where there are already cracks forming, and he no longer has to worry about the duo perception that has to be there at least a little, of Austin never would have told Nick to work on bringing me in. It was probably just another one of my million mistakes, but I have voiced this to him and he says he would never. He hasn't lied to me so far, so I do believe him. Thanks Nick Austin gets back from exile, and I message him so fast, I'm sure I set a world record for typing. He calls me pretty fast after that, and here we go. I tell him that Nick and I both played idols, and Holli left on a 5-0 vote. He says he looked for my name first in the tribe chat, saw me, so he assumed Nick left, until he saw his name too. I think he was annoyed that I never told him about my idol, but I think he was receptive to my other points surrounding the vote. I told him how close Nick and I were to idoling Holli to take out Michael, but I try and avoid how I knew that they weren't splitting the votes because I don't want to throw Jeff's name out, assuming Austin and Jeff are close because Austin told Nick to get Jeff to help him this round as he was leaving for exile. Jeff, Nick and I decided we'd throw Michael under the bus if we had to, so that's the story I'm going with. I tell Austin that look, I need him at this point, and he gets serious all of a sudden and goes: "Okay were building trust Jenny. Seriously, I'm going to tell you something and you'd be stupid to blow this up." I'm pretty speechless, because I have no idea what to expect next. He tells me that he knows his alliance or rather group of people used him as a scapegoat for the first vote to save their own asses, and that they don't actually care about him in the game at all. Because of this, he says if he didn't go to exile, he would've targeted Jermaine. I'M YELLING. Please let this be true. He says Jermaine is the most dangerous person here, that yes Michael is annoying, but Jermaine needs to go. I think I told him about Jermaine and Michael being a duo and Jermaine not voting for Holli without Michael, but I'm experiencing mild amnesia about the whole conversation. Austin adds Nick to the call (I guess I called with Nick separately after this? I'm telling you, I have to write this down before I lose it all) and he explains why he played his idol and all that jazz. Austin says that he doesn't have the idol because he and Teddy ran out of time to really talk about it, but he did find out that the other tribe thinks he's running some sort of army alliance and just picking us all off. Oops, that actually may be mine and Nick's doing. Well, Donald is the one who spread it probably but all the same. We all talk a bit more, I'm sure there's important game stuff that I'm missing, but what comes out of it is that we all tell each other we agree to work with each other, swap or not, and Austin says it might be better if we don't swap because we'll have majority since none of us can go to exile. Honestly, both a swap and not swapping scare me to death. Today, Austin named that chat (Sure Jan, since our initials spell JAN) and that makes it official right? God, get my hopes up, I know. Today was quiet, but Jeff said he wanted to call because he had news. Jeff was worried last night about my call with Austin because he thought he'd be mad, but all Austin said about Jeff last night was "I think Jeff is in love with me." I ask him to tell me at least what it's about because I'm impatient, and he asks me again what Austin told me last night about the idol. He says that Austin told Jermaine that Teddy wouldn't let him have the idol because that whole tribe is against him. Jeff thinks this doesn't make sense, on top of it already not making sense about him being sent to exile. I do sort of understand why he was sent to exile, but I'm just agreeing with Jeff at this point. I am worried about Austin talking to Jermaine today, but because I don't want him to snitch about our actual conversation. Austin I want to work with you okay? Someone leak this to him. I was supposed to call with Jeff tonight, but again it never happened. Seems to be the usual with us. He did randomly message me about what should he say to Austin about the vote because he was asking him who the deciding person was on the Holli vote, and LOL because it was actually Jeff, but I suggest to say it was Michael. Jeff says he tried to avoid answering, which I don't really like as an answer both to me or to Austin because it's shady and vague. I know I should've talked with Michael and Jermaine today, but it's a holiday for them and I used that as an excuse for me also to relax. Talked to Nick briefly tonight about things, and he's playing the what if game already. I just want to make it better for him. If you managed to read this whole thing, we both deserve a drink.
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Post by Jenn on Nov 25, 2017 1:57:50 GMT
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Post by Jenn on Nov 25, 2017 4:50:10 GMT
When I get to talk/vent to Teddy: When I have too many Skype notifications to handle: When I think about the partner twist and still a potential swap:
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Post by Jenn on Nov 25, 2017 23:13:21 GMT
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Post by Jenn on Nov 26, 2017 3:16:38 GMT
Okay, so now that I've been thinking about it, I know were all going to tribal council this round, but I don't think we're going as a group of 14. People are already worried about scrounging up at least 7 votes (I've already heard Jeff, Sam and Jermaine's names thrown out) but I don't think it'll matter. I think pairs will be announced, and that's how tribes will be divided. Two tribes of seven, broken down the middle of each pair, and it will be a double tribal council, where because of the twist, each tribe has someone immune. Get down to 12 quickly since we took a break for Thanksgiving, and repeat. I almost hope I'm wrong because I'd rather stay and hide in this massive group of people, but it's just cracked enough to possibly be true.
Now for the other notes I took that didn't make it into that video: 1. Teddy has an idol 2. Sam and Carley are close with Aren as a 3rd, Donald thinks they are targeting him 3. Lizzie doesn’t know that Teddy and I are good friends 4. Donald suggested an alliance of us and him + Lizzie, but he went and told Teddy and Tierra 5. Tierra knows Jermaine, Donald knows Jeff, Austin, Carley and Michael (talks with Jeff and Michael outside of the game) 6. Donald and Tierra know that Teddy has the idol 7. Austin told Donald that we’re good now, but Donald told Austin he’s on the bottom and is a free agent 8. Donald and Tierra are a duo, willing to vote out Sam/Carley/Aren 9. Sam was very upset about the Ben vote 10. Donald said he heard Mike was the target from Mike 11. Only Teddy and Lizzie have seen the Michael confessional 12. Donald calls Sam “Daddy Sam” because he’s partly running things and micromanages 13. Austin wants Jeff as a partner, so he can take him out and get a power 14. Steffen leaked to Mike that he was going, thinks no one knows, but Donald does 15. Carley loves using the word tea, she and Sam are huge personalities 16. Carley, Sam and Aren all left the group call together 17. Donald told Jeff all this info too 18. Donald tells his allies everything 19. Austin and Sam called, Donald was supposed to call with Michael, I called with Teddy, Donald, Steffen 20. Entire Yurbaco tribe wants Jeff out while Jeff wants Sam out, although Donald told me/Jeff/Austin he would flip with Tierra 21. Austin confronted Jeff about the text messages and said Jermaine (!!) leaked it, Jeff feels bad, Austin is going to call with him tonight/Teddy/me 22. Sam wants to call with Nick tonight 23. Donald asked on a tribe call about the Holli vote, told me someone told him that Aren thinks it was messy, I told Teddy and Teddy was the one who leaked it to Donald 24. Teddy doesn't know how much I've told Nick, told Nick not to say anything about the idol, etc.
If we go back up to point 11, this was by far the biggest piece of information I got last night. One of the first things Teddy tells me is about Michael posting a confessional publicly during the first round of the game, which is how he knew I was in trouble and to send me to exile. Maybe Michael has helped me out more than I thought LOL I sent it to Nick, so now our group of four know about it. It was definitely an interesting watch, and no wonder he voted Nick out over Elise. Honestly though, it pissed me off hearing him talk about me from the first night because he literally only talked to me about how "cold" it was in the Jersey Shore aka not cold and how his friends were pressuring him to go out. What do I say to that? Again, the weather? Such a shitty topic.
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Post by Adam on Nov 27, 2017 2:42:54 GMT
I feel like I need to record my thoughts before the game starts back up again and were either swapped, *John Wilson voice* "WHAT'S A SWAP?", or I'm forced to compete with these freaks again. That vote was a clusterfuck, a shitstorm, a live tribal, whatever you want to call it, it's an understatement. I think the entire tribe was kind of on the same page that we expected to lose, and whether that affected the results or not, I guess we'll never know. I did hear that Donald ate the half stick of butter, which I find fascinating and utterly disgusting, but I would expect no less dedication to the game from the Yurbaco tribe. When it was announced that Austin was going to exile, I was shocked. From everything I told Donald, and everything Nick then told Lizzie, it just seemed weird. Jeff was going off about how Austin must be cross tribal talking or something because they would never pick him to go. I do think that Lizzie had some influence in it, but when Austin came back he was saying that they weren't united on the exile vote so who knows how he got there. It was just the beginning of a shitty situation because Nick and I felt like there was some wiggle room in working with Austin on this vote. The vote itself, I was feeling like an idiot for playing my idol last night and it kept me up for a few hours, even though I knew I would almost always play it at the first tribal I attended after exile. After seeing the Elise vote, they were bound to assume I had it. It's been extremely frustrating that no one seems to be giving me a chance to play on this tribe, and they're content with sticking to a group and annihilating everyone else. I've been kind of having a pity party for myself the last 24 hours, because I don't think I did anything wrong in this game, and you're just written off. Regardless, I always felt like I had to take a risk to build trust with these people, and although I didn't tell them about the idol, I played it so they can be certain I don't have it anymore and don't need to split votes, that I'm not going to just idol them out, that they don't need to be scared or whatever of me. Jeff, Nick and I were on call for a while after we set a tribal time, and Jeff was feeding us information about what the alliances' voting plans were. It sounded like for a while they were going to split votes, because they thought only one of me and Nick had an idol, and then things got messy. Jeff said that Holli said she would "gladly" write my name down and then Jermaine messaged Nick that he was still deciding who to vote for between "Jenn and Nick". Bro...you're talking to Nick. Shortly after that, Nick left to go on call with Jermaine and sort out that fuck up. Nick was then relaying that conversation saying that Jermaine said he couldn't vote for Holli without Michael on board, and Michael didn't want to do that because like I said, he's stuck to that fucking alliance. Jeff wanted Holli out, and I talked to her the least, so I figured why not? She's already voting for me, so no big loss and hopefully it frees up Austin even more. However, while Nick was on call with Jermaine, he was watching Jermaine do all this work to get Michael on board with voting out Holli. All the while, Michael is messaging me about feeling in danger, so I'm just playing with him talking about how scared I also am because I think I'm on the bottom, and he's asking me if I have anything to help us blah blah blah, so I'm lying saying we have to vote Nick, until he comes to me saying that now he's heard Holli, and if we do that, then we can save each other and Nick. Am I supposed to feel grateful to this snake? Pass. Okay, are we still following? So at this point, the vote should be 5-1 for Holli and me. I was practically dying to get Nick on call and just talk the two of us about it, because after he left I was on call with Jeff, just making sure he was good with things, but Nick was texting me about seeing how dangerous Jermaine is and how much of a duo he is with Michael, so now he wants Michael out. I could totally see where he was coming from, and we'd already talked about Michael wouldn't know how to tell the truth if it hit him in the face, and for his game at least, Holli seemed like she was willing to work with Nick. At this point, tribal is in all of 5 minutes, and we don't know who we want out. Nick hopped back on call with me and Jeff, and because we're running out of time, confronts Jeff about us three voting for Michael instead. Not happening. Jeff is pretty persistent that Holli still needs to go, and I'm texting each of them separately, and Nick is thinking that Jermaine/Michael/Jeff are a tight three and if we don't swap and lose again, we're dependent on Austin to even cause a tie for us. Pretty bleak odds. Honestly, he has a point. There was something weird about the whole night and the info that Jeff would tell us, that doesn't take that threesome out of the realm of possibility. Emotions were running high and Jermaine didn't even message me once leading up to the vote, so at this point I'm thinking FUCK THIS and was literally, THIS CLOSE (imagine the 'OK' emoji where the thumb and index finger don't actually touch) to using my idol on Holli and having Nick and I vote out Michael. If this doesn't tell you how frustrated I was and how way too attached I am to Nick, I don't know what will. So I text Nick that, and he's also close do doing the same, and I think now that it's all said and done, kind of regrets not doing it, since he was going to play the idol anyways, but he told me while tribal council was happening that he would follow my lead on the idol situation. So Nick, Jeff and I are all on call freaking out because we need to hop off and join tribal council, but we don't know who were voting. During tribal, I'm still messaging them both, and Nick is answering tribal questions and shading Michael, but Jeff thinks it was about him and asking me about it, and then it's time to vote and I'm texting Nick like an idiot that Holli needs to change her vote to Michael to save herself and then Jeff will flip on a revote but of course she had to prevote and her phone had died. Then John is waiting for votes, and he's clearly just waiting on me and Nick to submit, and at the last second, I vote Holli. I don't want to use my idol on her and put a bigger target on my back for someone I don't even know would work with me afterwards, but I still need to play it on myself a) in case they did split votes because I know I can't trust Jermaine and Michael but for the life of me I can't figure out Jeff and b) when Austin comes back he's not worried about be lying or whatever, at this point I'm just trying to make myself feel better about it. As an aside, and about what Holli apparently said to Nick about me, I am actually a fan of her. I think we just didn't connect personally, and that might be on me. My first message to her was about being intimidated because of her past game placements and watching her play in CYS and Sequester, so I don't think it was a negative comment, she was just looking it as I was scared of her so I would want her out. I was wary sure, but I meant what I said. Any girl, any person really, who can come into these games and consistently do well, lead the games they play and dictate moves, is someone you want to cheer for. Michael messages me two hearts after tribal, and that sets me off. Like, take a hint. I apologized for not telling him about the idol, but tell him that it's been weird with us ever since he lied to me about the first vote when I came up to him asking about either Austin or Ben and he told me no. He didn't reply for a while, and then got almost defensive about it, saying that he went back and read the message and he never told me Ben, he just asked who said that. No offense, but I know how to read too. You said OMG WHO SAID BEN I HAVEN'T HEARD THAT AT ALL and then voted for him. He also says the first vote wasn't about me, it was about Ben and Elise knowing each (Elise told me she had no clue Ben had been on Tengaged) and that he found out about me and Ben much later. Very interesting. But I'm calm and tell him okay, you didn't say no, but it was mixed signals and he just tells me that it's whatever, water under the bridge, because we've been helping each other out lately. What the actual fuck? I swear, some people are dense. Where exactly have you been helping me out Michael? You fucked me over the first vote and lied to my face, would've voted me out had I not been sent to exile round two, and would've voted for me tonight if Jermaine hadn't spent an hour hounding you to vote for Holli. Damn, I need to learn how to help people clearly. Again, calm. He says were both team players and he likes that about me and it meant a lot to him to have me help him with the gifs in the challenge. Whatever. He didn't do his daily "Hey Jenn" message today, so pretty sure he hates me now too. The truth hurts people. Jeff calls Nick and I right after tribal, and I like Jeff, I really do, but at this point like I'm just not in the mood. I was literally on the verge of tears after that whole debacle, because just nothing I just can't do anything right in this game. Anyways, Nick confesses to Jeff that he was super close to using his idol on Holli, and he says that he suggested that in our chat but we just didn't read it, and that he wouldn't have been mad had that happened, or had we switched our votes, even though we didn't have the numbers as only two. Jeff then says he feels super guilty and he doesn't want us not to trust him and just that he feels really bad because after the first vote and now this, Nick and I are just lucky to scrape by basically and he doesn't want that. I then feel bad because I didn't want to put Nick in a bad position by keeping Michael, because I know that's his "Holli" in this situation. When I get emotional, I'm not the smartest decision maker, so I'm brash and ask Jeff outright, if it came down to Jermaine/Michael vs. me/Nick, who does he vote with. He said us, no question, no hesitation, which is nice to hear, and does carry some weight, but in this game actions speak louder than words so I guess we'll see. He probably thinks I don't trust him now and I just pushed him to their side, but damage done. We make plans to watch a movie sometime soon, the Lizzie McGuire movie because Nick lives under a rock and hasn't seen it, and are done with each other for the night. Jeff goes to bed, and Nick and I move our call to our personal messages so as to not look even more suspect to Jeff who I know won't fall asleep right away. Nick and I have our nightly call, rehash the night, try and make some tentative plans for moving forward but it's hard with all the potential scenarios. After hanging up the call, I get a text from Nick saying that he's actually just a bit hurt that Michael keeps lying to his face. I've actually developed a fast friendship with Nick, so this makes me pissed at Michael even more. Honestly, it's kind of super interesting to see how Nick deals with his first ORG. He was saying how even if the game ended now, he'd need a 3 month break because it's already been a rollercoaster. It reminds me of playing my first game, where I think I cried the most I ever had in my life the night I got blindsided by a friend, or didn't think I'd ever play another game. Ever. Yet here we are. I don't know whether it's been this shitty tribe and I've basically only had him to talk to, but he's been the best ally and friend in this game that I could've asked for. Recipe for disaster because I already know I'm too loyal to him. There's no doubt in my mind that he could go far. I made the prediction of him doing well in my first confessional, and I stand by it even now. Everyone likes him, and how can you not, like I've literally had both Jeff and Austin come to me to say that Nick is one of their favourites. I know he's got an in with Jermaine, even though Jermaine would cut his own mother to win at this point, and Holli would've worked with him, given the right circumstances. Truthfully, I think he should've cut me at maybe not that last vote, but soon if we don't swap. I would cut me. If he votes me out, that could easily gain him more trust with these people, where there are already cracks forming, and he no longer has to worry about the duo perception that has to be there at least a little, of Austin never would have told Nick to work on bringing me in. It was probably just another one of my million mistakes, but I have voiced this to him and he says he would never. He hasn't lied to me so far, so I do believe him. Thanks Nick Austin gets back from exile, and I message him so fast, I'm sure I set a world record for typing. He calls me pretty fast after that, and here we go. I tell him that Nick and I both played idols, and Holli left on a 5-0 vote. He says he looked for my name first in the tribe chat, saw me, so he assumed Nick left, until he saw his name too. I think he was annoyed that I never told him about my idol, but I think he was receptive to my other points surrounding the vote. I told him how close Nick and I were to idoling Holli to take out Michael, but I try and avoid how I knew that they weren't splitting the votes because I don't want to throw Jeff's name out, assuming Austin and Jeff are close because Austin told Nick to get Jeff to help him this round as he was leaving for exile. Jeff, Nick and I decided we'd throw Michael under the bus if we had to, so that's the story I'm going with. I tell Austin that look, I need him at this point, and he gets serious all of a sudden and goes: "Okay were building trust Jenny. Seriously, I'm going to tell you something and you'd be stupid to blow this up." I'm pretty speechless, because I have no idea what to expect next. He tells me that he knows his alliance or rather group of people used him as a scapegoat for the first vote to save their own asses, and that they don't actually care about him in the game at all. Because of this, he says if he didn't go to exile, he would've targeted Jermaine. I'M YELLING. Please let this be true. He says Jermaine is the most dangerous person here, that yes Michael is annoying, but Jermaine needs to go. I think I told him about Jermaine and Michael being a duo and Jermaine not voting for Holli without Michael, but I'm experiencing mild amnesia about the whole conversation. Austin adds Nick to the call (I guess I called with Nick separately after this? I'm telling you, I have to write this down before I lose it all) and he explains why he played his idol and all that jazz. Austin says that he doesn't have the idol because he and Teddy ran out of time to really talk about it, but he did find out that the other tribe thinks he's running some sort of army alliance and just picking us all off. Oops, that actually may be mine and Nick's doing. Well, Donald is the one who spread it probably but all the same. We all talk a bit more, I'm sure there's important game stuff that I'm missing, but what comes out of it is that we all tell each other we agree to work with each other, swap or not, and Austin says it might be better if we don't swap because we'll have majority since none of us can go to exile. Honestly, both a swap and not swapping scare me to death. Today, Austin named that chat (Sure Jan, since our initials spell JAN) and that makes it official right? God, get my hopes up, I know. Today was quiet, but Jeff said he wanted to call because he had news. Jeff was worried last night about my call with Austin because he thought he'd be mad, but all Austin said about Jeff last night was "I think Jeff is in love with me." I ask him to tell me at least what it's about because I'm impatient, and he asks me again what Austin told me last night about the idol. He says that Austin told Jermaine that Teddy wouldn't let him have the idol because that whole tribe is against him. Jeff thinks this doesn't make sense, on top of it already not making sense about him being sent to exile. I do sort of understand why he was sent to exile, but I'm just agreeing with Jeff at this point. I am worried about Austin talking to Jermaine today, but because I don't want him to snitch about our actual conversation. Austin I want to work with you okay? Someone leak this to him. I was supposed to call with Jeff tonight, but again it never happened. Seems to be the usual with us. He did randomly message me about what should he say to Austin about the vote because he was asking him who the deciding person was on the Holli vote, and LOL because it was actually Jeff, but I suggest to say it was Michael. Jeff says he tried to avoid answering, which I don't really like as an answer both to me or to Austin because it's shady and vague. I know I should've talked with Michael and Jermaine today, but it's a holiday for them and I used that as an excuse for me also to relax. Talked to Nick briefly tonight about things, and he's playing the what if game already. I just want to make it better for him. If you managed to read this whole thing, we both deserve a drink. short version please
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Post by Jenn on Nov 27, 2017 10:17:19 GMT
Donald picking Austin first: Me finally being separated from Nick: When Sam tells the OG Yurbaco tribe that I'm so eager to join a group, like he didn't start the call with me: And finally, me at everyone except for Teddy/Lizzie/Nick:
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Post by Jenn on Nov 28, 2017 0:32:02 GMT
Adam, why you gotta quote my long ass confessional and ruin the feng shui of this thread? SMH.
Also, according to the boys, they want to target Jermaine because they're gambling on Jeff getting voted out On Yurbaco, and then no extra powers get handed out. Sam kept telling me that Steffen's idol was the only one left, even though I know he told Teddy he didn't think I actually played mine and Teddy said he told Sam and Aren about his because they thought he had no vote. I hope Nick and Lizzie are safe tonight. Sam and Aren were thinking we're going to marge at 12, after this vote, and the first or second people just wouldn't make jury, but I think we have another round like this. Defeats the purpose of a tribe swap without it.
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Post by Adam on Nov 28, 2017 3:35:39 GMT
I like ruining things <3
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Post by Nick on Dec 22, 2017 0:33:42 GMT
Nick @ Jeff trying to get the vote from Holli onto Michael: The accuracy
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